SUNLESS HAZE
by Lynne Dale
aka Kethry
Copyright 2008

The darkened days of sunless haze
hold grief too deep to bear for long,
and in the night I wake in fright.
Then even hope has lost its song.
How could it be this black I see
is consequence of life gone wrong?
And how do I not fail to sigh
when I'm so weak and never strong.

It used to be that I could see
sunshine even midst the grey.
But now my dreams have turned to screams
for happiness has flown away.
Succumb to night and die in fright
is what my heartbeat seems to say
while love now stone becomes my own
and 'death please take me', all I pray.

The times I tried and tears I cried
are all forgotten and my fear
grows bold and brash, till something rash
fills my thoughts and blocks my ear.
I cannot kneel or even feel
there's no bright future waiting here.
All I can see and all I'll be
is nothing. Nothing! Is that clear?

My heart won't mend and I can't tend
my soul. The darkness is too great.
This pain too stark has left its mark
Just leave me. LEAVE ME to my fate.
I want to die and I can't try
pretending this will soon abate
for I've been shown, all love has flown
and everything has come too late.

The thread I hold has left me cold
I don't know why I hang on still.
This pounding pain, this darkest rain
all consuming, shapes my will.
I lie awake and for his sake
I hold to life through night until
the morning dawns and with sad yawns
a sunless haze crosses my sill.